Like everyone said, if you're dead serious about your depression issue, I'll tell you this.

I'm suffering from depression for over 8 years. Both of us are on the same boat here.

Recently I broke up with a girl that meant everything to me, we were very close to be in a good relationship but she fucked it up because of her shit behavior and reactions. I told her the truth, she didn't liked the idea of me knowing the truth so she wanted to feed my brain with lies, which didn't work out pretty well. She didn't want to admit she was in love with me. I had amazing times with her, she was just perfect for me.

I've been going off work and every night I've been crying because I knew we were done. I'm still heartbroken and anytime I think about her, my heart races to the limit where it could stop. She doesn't want to talk with me, neither see me or anything. Probably worst few days of my life.

Then a week earlier I lost $200 within 20 minutes, and that was all I had when it comes to money.
I found a job recently and so far I love it. It's not like I'll stay there for ages, but until the next year I most likely will. My boss seems to be a great guy and workmates seem to be nice.

Thinking about someone who I loved and cared about is just too depressing and heartbreaking.
I wanted to end it all yesterday. I felt so worthless, I felt like everything tore apart in my life. I literally have no hope for any relationships anytime soon, especially after what she's done to me. She literally doesn't give a fuck about me and how I feel. She was that kind of girl that didn't even think of manipulating me.

I wanted to end my life three times and all three times were failure. One time I almost had done it, twice was mostly thinking about it and I guess yesterday was fourth time. Trust me, it's very hard for me. Today I have to see her to give me back my USB she took from me since it's a favorite USB of mine.

You have a life to live, and I have a life to live. It won't be easy to see her almost every day. I know exactly how you feel and trust me, the last thing you want is to hurt yourself. You're gonna hurt yourself, your family and your friends. My mom wouldn't know what she would do without me because she knows what I'm going through. Don't hurt your family man. Don't do it because of them.

Keep it together, cry yourself to sleep, it helps me because next morning I feel much better.

I never went for professional help because I don't trust these morons, they care more about money than my own health. You can do it man, I'm definitely sure of it. :)

I wouldn't even think of making money illegally. I ain't got plans to end up in jail just yet. xD

Honestly, it hit me up pretty bad. I can't say it didn't, you know.

Funny story though: My mentor who's one of the manager's in the trading firm, he wants me to hop into one of the most lucrative business propositions. He knew I needed the money for the bills though. I need $1,000 for that though. It's investing into stocks, and stocks are way more lucrative and profitable than binary options. I don't know how am I gonna get $1,000 but somehow I will. In Croatian currency, that's a lot. Like 6,500 Croatian Kuna(which is Croatian currency). But, like I said, I'm no quitter. :)

Yeah well it happens. This what happened to me isn't an end. If it was I would have quit back in 2012 when I invested money into various products and all of them were scams, well...most of them. My biggest problem are those bills because they must be paid one way or another. When they're paid, then I can easily do the rest. There's a few ways I can get them back though.

Freelancer site is where you can offer your products to people, for example, logo's. People are gonna do cheap logo's there so will I. I can get like $30 per logo. Yes, it's not a lot, but it's good money for like 20 minutes of work. There will be competition though, which are more skilled people.

Obviously, they won't ask for top notch work, if they want top notch work, they better prepare like $300+ and get to 99designs site where they still claim they got best designers when they don't lol.

I'm glad graphics design is part of my life too. It can be really profitable. :)

Some of you probably noticed how I wasn't online for the past few days. It was for a reason.
I got bored of playing MC so I didn't play for some time. I don't want to take too much of your time.

So here it goes...I was doing my trading stuff, and I was practicing a bit and shit like that.
The title of this thread leads me to tell you that I lost all the money I had in my trading account.

Basically, I'm completely broke right now. You guys probably thought I lost my home and everything.
Yeah well, I didn't. If I did, I wouldn't be able to write this, right?.
I did work my ass off for those $200 I had. They were all I had. I had bills to pay and now I can't pay them off.

To me, that money was everything because basically that is all I had. Money never meant anything to me, but when you lose what you worked for, when you lose what was supposed to go somewhere else, then that's the right time to say that you lost everything.

But, I'm not someone who quits that easily. I'm not a quitter I'm a fucking warrior.

Take this as a good example. Take this as some kind of inspiration to not quit on what you want to accomplish.
I did a big mistake and I lost everything. I took my own risk even though I talked to my mentor when I was doing it.

Remember that it's not worth of quitting just because you lost every penny you had.
Don't think everything became impossible for you. There's people that ran companies and their companies went downhill.
They got their asses up and started all over again. They ain't no quitters. They won't complain or shoot themselves.

Don't ever expect from people to help you back up. You'll have to do it yourself. That's how greedy people are.
They'll be there for you though, but financial situation is something what you have to solve by yourself.

I won't ask for my friend's help or my family's help. My family is already in a fucked up situation themselves.

This is what I mean with: "Be happy with what you have, because you might lose that little you have."

Don't quit. Don't complain. Get your ass up and do it all over again. :)

This is my new hat =D Don't mind the smile because I had sunlight going straight to my face plus the camera flash xD

Is that Minecraft, Cellexya?

Nevermind, I read Flux's ban appeal. That guy is a complete idiot.

I'm glad he's gone. Good job Nysic, you deserve a motherfucking cookie :D

It's funny how to this day I still have no idea what's going on with this Fluxated stuff.

I know who Fluxated is, but what was going on? I don't keep track on anything negative around the community, but I'd like to know what he has done. :P

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